Wednesday, October 30, 2013

the persistence of memory

general thoughts on essay-writing and blogging.
These questions pop into my head as I craft a college application.

- After you have graced this world for eighty years or so, how would you like to be remembered? What impact will you make, and which sacrifices will it take?

- Would you like be widely admired, oft quoted, and resurrected in The American Pageant? Steve Jobs, whose contributions outshone his personal conduct, comes to mind.

- Or would you rather be thought upon daily and deeply by a handful of loved ones? I think of the stay-at-home-moms who exchanged a career for a well-loved brood.

- Must you pick between the two? The love of close company and appreciation of the masses need not conflict. Superficially, it's either/or, but closer examination detects traces of both potentialities.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

a love story

Pinky and Qiomi in marker heaven
When we first bought Qiomi (chee-oh-me), he was only three inches long. He had silver scales smudged with charcoal, and a distinctly mango-colored head. We intended for him to be Chubby the goldfish’s companion. But within a day, Qiomi took a large bite out of Chubby’s tail, securing his status as sole occupant of the tank. 

Qiomi had a passion for flesh. Blame us not, we didn’t know that koi oughtn’t to be mixed with other fish. To compensate company-wise, we procured another koi, this one a camellia blush. Pinky, creatively dubbed, was twice Qiomi’s volume. Surely Qiomi had met his match - for a few weeks, anyway.

They plumped with each passing day. Whenever Qiomi detected a sprinkle of shredded shrimp, he would dart toward the surface and slurp furiously. He had a way of nosing Pinky out of the way, and poor Pinky settled with crumbs, taking in one-tenth of what Qiomi did. Pinky probably needed prescription goggles.

It took one month for Qiomi to surpass Pinky in brawn. Qiomi measured one foot in length, while Pinky maintained her four inches. The mismatched pair swam together for four years - married for eons in fish time (Note: I assigned the genders. Qiomi was ever-so-manly in temperament, despite being named after my mom's female colleague, and Pinky was lovely as a lotus. They never had eggs, though. Maybe they were just really good friends).

Each morning, before cooking her own breakfast, my mom would greet her two fishes. Pinky tended to sleep in. But Qiomi, in the manner of a golden retriever, would poke his yellow nose out of the water and let my mom pat him with her finger (I lie not!). Mom was the Fish Whisperer. Being a tactful guardian, she never prepared sushi in their lines of vision.

One still night, Qiomi "jumped the dragon gate" (like the carp from the Chinese idiom who became a dragon) and landed in the kitchen sink. He broke two hearts: my mom's and Pinky's. 

Pinky faded. She floated listlessly, never eating (fish get anorexia, too). Her bones, devoid of vitamins, bent unnaturally. We tried to revive her by introducing a new fish friend, but she was disinterested. The little pink ghost passed away from loneliness a month after Qiomi.

My mom buried both of them under a cement stepping stone that I made in kindergarten. An apricot tree grows there now, and Pinky and Qiomi sleep in its shade.

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

late-night lesson libretto

The scene. I told you that shoes were an accurate indicator :)
Every Tuesday night, several hours after sunset, I stifle my yawns and head over to my violin teacher's house. On the way there, I let pop music fill the car and yowl with all my might (preferred mode of de-stressing). I began learning with this teacher just three months ago, and I've never been happier. I will miss these days of juggling two instruments - they are marked by constant exhaustion, but also infinite inspiration.